Fruits Basket: The Mystery Behind Kyo and Kyoko

Kyo :'(

My heart is breaking. My eyes are tearing up. I never would have thought that a cartoon could bring me this much heartache. I've officially reached the bittersweet zone of the Fruit's Basket manga, and everything seems to be unraveling in the story. Chaper 119: "Do You Love Me?" broke my heart. To recap, Tohru finally confronts Kyo with her feelings, asking whether he loves her. Kyo responds by asking about her mother, whether she truly loves her mother, and that she shouldn't love him. We then learn the history behind Kyo and Kyoko: they met one day when Kyoko spotted a young Kyo, and approched him to tease him about his funny looking hair. For weeks, the two would meet up with each other and talk about many things, Tohru being one of them. The day that Tohru got lost, Kyo made a promise to Kyoko, saying that he would always protect Tohru. However, Yuki ended up being the one to find her, and that hurt Kyo. He cursed the rat, saying that even though he found Tohru, he was still evil. He ran away, with Kyoko smiling and shouting, "don't forget your promise" behind him. They didn't meet again...until the day of her accident. There, in that moment, Kyo had had the chance to save her, but in order to do so, he would have to hold her. Worried about his curse being discovered, he let her die.

Kyo took the blame for Kyoko's death, and Tohru's sorrow. This whole time he must have wondering whether getting close to Tohru was a good idea. Whether getting close to her would hurt her in the end.  His hurt, pain, and guilt was just too much to handle. I literally screamed at my computer screen, saying, "it's not you fault!! You don't need to make youself unhappy because of that!" I can't imagine how he must have felt when he saw Kyoko die. Added to the guilt that has been put on him because of his own mother's death. I want to hug him right now. Poor Kyo...poor Tohru.